BrwnEyedGirl248's Xanga

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 22:38:35 GMT

hey. i havent updated in a while...things have been okay. but i really really hate babysitting. i want a real job. boo hoo.

i dont really have anything to write....i just felt like updating.

comment. tell me a joke.

here's one to get you going.

two peanuts were walking down the street. one was assaulted.

ahhaaa get it!? assaulted- a salted. jake gave me that one.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 20:44:18 GMT

school sucks so badly......

yay. im so happy. i dont have too much hw tonight so i got to work on my photo album and ill probably be able to finish "go ask alice." great book. read it.

later biatches.

Sunday, October 31, 2004

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 17:09:00 GMT

grr. my mom just told me soph is driving to niagra falls in the benkert's car. meaning 6 1/2 hrs in the car, just me and my parents. happy fuckin joy joy. how stupid can they possibly be? do they honestly think this hell trip is going to be even the slightest fun for me? goddammit.

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here's an extra little tidbit of my parent's stupidity. my dad just told me to run the car through the car wash....ummm i would, if i had my LICENSE!! jeez. (plus im afraid of car washes.)

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 00:11:12 GMT

well, my mom has started looking at boys for me again.....

today this guy hit on me in pearl....

at ruby tuesday's i saw my mom looking at one of the workers, and she goes "not bad" so i looked. omg. so hot! my mom has such good taste. hahaha. and then he ended up bringing us our food, and he stalled at our table. haha. i feel like such a little girl saying all this. but oh well. boys are fun. lol

see the grudge. its soo scary. i had to sleep with my mom last night!

i made my wand for my costume and tried it on today. it is SO adorable. i can't wait for the masquerade.

i dont think i'll ever get what i want. why did i even think i would?

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 18:54:03 GMT

well, after last night i'm changing the stickers i'm making. instead of "vote for bush" it's going to say "______ mandatory minimum" which do you like better? murder, minimize, elimintae, annihilate, or massacre? i watched MTV choose or lose last night, which was about kids going to jail for non-violent drug crimes and i found out many interesting facts. thanks to the crack-addicts of the 80's, there are people in jail for 15 years for possession of drugs, while murderers and rapists are jailed for only 2-4 years. something is wrong with this! your classmate who smokes weed can go to jail longer than a freak-o man who commits manslaughter. what if that person killed was you or someone you love, that idea would friggin suck ass. becuase of mandatory miminum brought around in the 80's, you go to jail depending on the weight of the drugs you are found with. bush supports this. damn him. he says we need to crack down on our drug problem....even though we have way bigger problems? go get those murderers goddamnit who gives a shit if someone has drugs. that's their own health problem, they shouldnt be locked up like a goddamn animal because of it! i love bush, but when it comes to drugs, he's got it allll wrong. but since this issue if very important to me, i can't oversee it, and since kerry is a dumbass, i have to remain neutral.

comment.

love, hanna

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 16:03:51 GMT

so yesterday after the psat's, me, nicole, jina, dell, chels, brian, shawn, and andrew went to perkins. yum! good times! then the boys left and us girlies walked to pizza time and then chel left and the rest of us walked to merrill park. that was awesome. i love you guys so much!!

well our extremely long convo made me think that maybe i don't want to go too far for college. tcnj perhaps? or....i can't believe im saying this...rutgers!?? and news flash::: its true, white girls think about sex a lot more than guys. hahaha!!

anyway, then i had a stupid key club officer meeting at pizza time and then went babysitting. uck. oh well. made 32 bucks. hmmm...that's about it. i have to ...OMG. GO TO THE CROP WALK. IM LATE. BYEEE

Friday, October 15, 2004

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 19:53:35 GMT

i am in such a crappy mood. i feel like crying. everything is going terribly wrong. plus i'm so stressed out and this weekend is only going to be busier. and to make matters worse, i have a night-time babysitting job tonight which always drives me nuts. i feel like such a complainer. but really, things are bad, and i guess im just being pms-y too. my point is that im really tired (not just physically) and i want to relax tonight and i can't relax until next friday and i've been thinking recently about how its really not fair that i've been used two times and how much i've been eating recently!! grr. i don't know whats wrong with me. well...later.

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 18:09:26 GMT

i hate school and i hate boys and i hate food and i hate gym and i hate running and i hate homework and i hate babysitting and i hate everything! fuck everything!

on a happier note, my mom bought me a mattress cushiony cover thing, so now my bed is extra squooshy.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 20:04:01 GMT

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful, or brave, or smooth, or charming
and you'd want to call me..
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...

But for now I'll look so longingly
waiting...
For you to want me, for you need me, for you to notice me

-Dashboard Confessional

i love love love this song.

You know, I was trying to write a motif essay about Arthur Miller and I couldn't concentrate. How am I supposed to write some stupid crap when I'm listening to amazing songs that mean so much more to me!? It is impossible to do homework and listen to dashboard. I hate homework. I don't have time for stupid crap!

i totally said that wrong.....sorry.

Monday, October 11, 2004

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 21:00:29 GMT

putting away all of my summer clothes was really sad, even though it shouldn't have been....

these past few months have been flying by. all the days are blurred together. last night in fellowship, we were doing highs and lows (thats when you talk about the good/bad parts of the past week) and when it was my turn i didn't know what to say becuase i couldnt remember what i did that week, well only faintly, but the week before...forget about it! it seems like after i do something, i forget about it. completely. it's really bad!

today becky asked about the boy, and i said no more and she asked if there was a new one and i said no and soph said she was surprised because i always have a boyfriend, i said what is that supposed to mean? well? what was it supposed to mean? maybe compared to delia. haha.

well, i love you all. ::kisses::

Hanna